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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 14, 2008 22:35:05 GMT 1
It wasn't a common thing to Aidan to Aidan to be on the beach. He didn't like getting tanned. Simply because he couldn't.
His skin was too sensitive and instead of getting golden it would get red and hurt. But he needed some warmth and comfort and strangely the beach sounded like a perfect place. That's why he was sitting on a blanket with a white shirt covering his shoulders and a hat on his head. The guitar was hidden in the case. He had a notebook in his lap but instead of writing he was just staring at the sea
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Post by Christian Tait on May 14, 2008 22:49:32 GMT 1
Christian sat in the sand only a few feet away from his supposed lover, his shirt shed somewhere behind him and thin arms wrapped tightly around his knees. Addy had given him the day off today and insisted that she take Brooke for a little girl time with Sky. He really wished she hadn't, he didn't have anything to do with himself now that he didn't have a child demanding his undivided attention. He glanced over at Aidan and then back to the water, making small designs in the sand with the tips of his fingers. This was what life was like for him these days, always putting a little space between them in fear that he might snap and hurt him again. Christian didn't trust himself anymore.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 14, 2008 22:56:59 GMT 1
Aidan knew Chris was there. he wished the other would just sit with him and talk. He didn't know how to reach him even though he tried. So instead he took his camera and turned to face the other man. "smile fo the paparazzi" he said taking some pictures of Christian. He'd print them later and put in his room. All around his room so he could see him.
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Post by Christian Tait on May 15, 2008 0:11:40 GMT 1
Christian turned his head towards him and forced a smile on his face which ended up only looking like a pained grimace. He could see from just the look in the others eyes how much his distance had been affecting him, but it was a necessary action for the time being. Something that Aidan probably wouldn't understand. "Why would the paparazzi be following me? Addy is the one they would want.." He asked conversationally, trying to ease up his tension if only a little.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 15, 2008 8:06:46 GMT 1
Aidan made a playfully shocked face. "What do you mean why? Aren't we going to be famous? the band, remember? Our music. We'll have fans and paparazzi following us everywhere. We should enjoy our freedom while we still can" He chuckled telling the camera hang on his neck and walking to Chris on his knees. When he was only an arm length away from him he pulled the camera back to his eye and took a shot of Christian's face. "People are going to pay lots of money for this picture" He said grinning and winking
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Post by Christian Tait on May 15, 2008 10:05:07 GMT 1
Christian shrugged. He had forgotten that they were planning on becoming famous someday with their music. That dream had been pushed to the far back of his mind what with all the other things he had to worry about these days. He rested his chin on his knees as Aidan began crawling towards him, intentionally going cross eyed for the picture.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 15, 2008 10:20:53 GMT 1
Aidan laughed at the image of Christian's crossed eyes. "Silly" He chuckled tossing the camera back onto the blanket then placing hands on Christian's knees, on both sides of his chin. "HOw long are you foing to be like this?" He asked softly leveling his face with Christian's and looking into his eyes.
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Post by Christian Tait on May 15, 2008 10:27:36 GMT 1
"Until you finally open your eyes and run away screaming.." Christian answered quietly. He knew it would happen eventually, no one was ever that forgiving. Aidan will soon see how bad of a person he really is. He leaned back to rest his palms in the sand, leaving Aidan sitting between his spread legs as he stretched out. "I'm surprised it hasn't happened sooner"
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 15, 2008 10:37:57 GMT 1
Aidan crawled between his legs sitting closer but making sure not to do anything that could be even a bit sexual. Even his hands were folded neatly in his lap even though before he'd be already sliding them up and down Chrsitian's thighs in a gentle caress. He was scared though. Something inside him blocked and he couldn't get past some things. "My eyes are wide open already and I have no plans of running away screaming" Aidan answere d softly but his voice turned colder, showing signs of annoyance
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Post by Christian Tait on May 15, 2008 10:49:03 GMT 1
Christian cringed as Aidan's voice turned colder, more annoyed. He didn't like making him feel that way but what could he really do about it? This his way of punishing himself for doing such a bad thing. "I'm sorry.." He sighed heavily. Those two words were commonly spoken by Chris these days, a broken record.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 15, 2008 10:58:50 GMT 1
"Why?" Aidan's eyebrow arched gracefully. "Sorry that I'm not going to leave?" It would really be nice if Chris could finally make up his mind and decide whether he wanted Aidan here or not. Whenever Aidan tried to leave he'd hear how he promised he wouldn't leave. When he was trying to fight for them Chris would push him away. He was really getting tired and very confused. "Is that what you want?"
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Post by Christian Tait on May 15, 2008 11:09:09 GMT 1
Christian quickly shook his head no. That was the last thing he wanted him to do but he couldn't blame him if he left. Chris was a terrible lover. "I'm just sorry..you know.." He mumbled, keeping his eyes low. He scooted closer, resting his cheek against his boyfriends chest. "No..I don't want that..don't leave.."
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 15, 2008 11:27:08 GMT 1
"I know" Aidan's voice softened again and his slim arms wrapped around Christian's shoulders. "I know you're sorry but...please stop thinking about it all the time. Don't make it your burden. What happened happened already and we can't change it. All we can do is to make sure it doesn't happen again" He kissed the top of Christian's head tenderly
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Post by Christian Tait on May 15, 2008 11:35:02 GMT 1
It wasn't that easy to just stop thinking about it, but he wished he could. He wished he didn't have to be reminded of what happened every time he looked at his boyfriend. Strange how this affected Chris more than it did the victim. Guilt was a terrible feeling. "I'm sorry for being like this..its our first time alone..we should be enjoying our day.." He mumbled, lifting his head to smile weakly at him.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 15, 2008 11:42:57 GMT 1
"yes we should" Aidan nodded sending Chris a heart melting smile. He moved around Christian so he'd have him seated between his legs, leaning against his chest. Even though the position wasn't making him safe he decided to try. They needed to move past that. BUt Christian was wrong. Aidan was affected. So much he'd have nightmares sometimes. But he didn't want the other to see it. He was good at hiding things, wearing his mask.
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