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Post by Christian Tait on May 6, 2008 21:50:27 GMT 1
Christian still counted that as leaving, whether he was outside the door or not. He had still walked through that door while things were tense between them, like they were breaking up again. What else was he supposed to think? "What stupid thing were you going to say Kinney?" He was curious.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 6, 2008 22:01:23 GMT 1
"I don't know" Aidan shrugged. "And I'd rather not wonder about it. All I know is that emotions were taking over. Speaking for me. And in the situation we were in...I could have said something I don't think...just because I was very...upset. Chris I know it's stupid but it keeps coming back. And now that we're together..." He sighed and rubbed his eyes. "Chris, i'm scared. I'm scared because I'm happy. I've never been happy with anyone before. All my life people around me were trying to hurt me. And I know you would never hurt me but that little boy inside me is still scared that something will go wrong. He can't believe someone could really like him" He was shaking, vulnerable. It was very rare for him to open up that much but maybe this was the way to heal
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Post by Christian Tait on May 6, 2008 22:21:48 GMT 1
"And do you think that this little boys life has been all peaches and cream?" Christian asked, shaking his head in disbelief. He sat up, handing Brooke back to Aidan so he could wrap his arms around him from behind. Resting his chin on his shoulder. "Don't judge the cover before you've read the book. He's scared too..Who could possibly want him?" He glanced down at himself.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 6, 2008 22:27:33 GMT 1
Aidan cuddled Brooke in his arms rocking her softly and smiling as she yawned falling asleep. He leaned his head back a little pressing his cheek to Christian's. "I would" He answered. "And I do. I know your childhood wasn't all pink either. I guess that's why we're so complicated and it's so difficult for us now. But if despite that we still want to be together then it means something. It's not just for fun" He turned head and kissed Christian's cheek. "We just need time to believe it"
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Post by Christian Tait on May 7, 2008 0:56:11 GMT 1
Christian looked at him confused. So is that what he thought? That Chris was playing him like this was some sick game? He didn't like that. Of course he wasn't this oh so great person but he wouldn't toy with someone's life like that. It was just cruel. "Can I tell you something?" He asked, moving to sit more to his side so that he could face him. "Without you getting upset or thinking too much into it?"
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 7, 2008 8:24:34 GMT 1
Aidan never thought Christian was toying him. Only deep inside it was hard to believe he was real and he wouldn't just wake up to face the cruel reality. But f course as always he didn't knw how to say it to make Christian understand the problem was inside him - Aidan. "Of course you can" He nodded slowly already getting a little nervous
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Post by Christian Tait on May 7, 2008 10:08:05 GMT 1
Christian paused, taking a deep breath. He was having second thoughts about telling Aidan what was on his mind. It was too soon and could potentially get him angry or upset at him. He kissed him in hopes that it would make everything clear for him again. "I was thinking about..um..I don't know if you would like this but..um.." Another pause. He looked down, tracing patterns on Aidan's leg. "I was thinking that if we could manage to last longer than a week then would tell my parents..about you.." He said quickly, his face heating up. Yes, this was much too soon. "and with that would come consequences.."
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 7, 2008 10:15:52 GMT 1
Aidan's eyes were following Christian's fingers on his leg. That was until he hear what the other said and his ees widened looking up at Chris. "Your parents?" He said weakly. Christian really wanted to tell his parents about Aidan? now that sounded serious. But there was something else too. "What consequences?"
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Post by Christian Tait on May 7, 2008 10:37:27 GMT 1
Christian nodded his head slowly, waiting for him to jump and yell that it was a crazy idea. But he knew that wouldn't come until he told him the consequences of telling his parents. "I was thinking last night while I watched you sleep that I should..tell them. It became clearer this morning..when you said you would..you know..for Brooke.." He nervously traced a heart shaped pattern on his leg. "My parents haven't been too happy with the decisions I've made for my life over these past few years. They won't be happy about this either..I'll most likely be disowned" Not that it mattered much, he was an adult now. But an adult who lived off of his fathers bank account.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 7, 2008 10:48:39 GMT 1
Aidan was still looking at Christian so he didn't see the heart that the otehr drew on his leg but his own heart was dancing in his chest. "while I watched you sleep ". Aidan smiled a little hoping it would make Christ feel less nervous. "So you think they won't understand and at the same time they won't like me...accept the fact that we're together" He nodded slowly then shrugged. "I know it's important for you and I wish it was different but...for me it doesn't matter. It's you I want. Not them" He leaned and kissed Christian. Disowned? Did Chris really think Aidan would care?
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Post by Christian Tait on May 7, 2008 11:04:05 GMT 1
That wasn't the reaction that Christian had been expecting and quite frankly he was a little disappointed in his attitude. He didn't care that Chris was suggesting that he forget about his family just so he could be with him. Did he not know what being disowned meant to someone like him? It was a huge lifestyle choice for Chris. His family or his boyfriend. "Ugh..you are unbelievable Kinney..just forget I said anything"
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 7, 2008 11:24:39 GMT 1
Aidan didn't understand what happened but apparently his reaction wasn't what Chris expected. He frowned pouting sadly. "What? Why should I forget? What did I say wrong?" He asked looking back down. Will he ever say something that will be right? He sighed blinking fast as his eyes suddenly ecame ratehr damp. At least Chris wouldn't be able to see it
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Post by Christian Tait on May 7, 2008 11:33:23 GMT 1
"I'm not going to screw things up with them if you don't even care! What's the point? Please..just forget I said anything.." Christian moved away from him, curling back up into his previous position. He was such an idiot for thinking that he could tell them this soon. Knowing his luck they would break up right after he gave away everything that was important to him.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 7, 2008 11:41:11 GMT 1
Aidan almost succeded in stopping the tears when Christian moved away from him. "Who told you I didn't care?" He asked quietly watching his tears sink into Brooke's blanket. "What kind of reaction did you expect from me? You think it doesn't mean a thing to me?" Now the tears were even in his voice. "You think I don't know how much that means? To you or to me? And how difficult this decision is?" He got up and turned around facing Chris. "What else do you expect from me? Tell me" All the time his voice was soft and quiet not wanting to disturb Brooke's sleep
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Post by Christian Tait on May 7, 2008 11:52:00 GMT 1
Even though his voice was soft it still felt like Aidan was yelling at him. And for what reason he didn't know. If anyone should be upset right now it should be Chris. He turned around to face him as well, jumping to his feet with his arms crossed tightly across his chest. Hugging himself. "I don't know..I was expecting something other than It doesn't matter for one thing" He shook his head. "It's a stupid Idea..I know.."
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