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Post by Christian Tait on May 14, 2008 10:08:52 GMT 1
Christian dropped his hand back into his lap as Aidan began to back away towards the door. There was no use in uglying up the other side of his face too, he would find a different place to focus his pain on. His wrists sounded like a lovely place to start. But did he have the guts to do it? Aidan was wrong about one thing, about him not wanting a relationship with him. Yes, he held a small blame in the back of his mind towards Aidan for pressuring him, but he still wanted to be with him. He couldn't think of anyone else he wanted more. As much as he wanted Aidan to go, run as far away from him as possible just in case Chris managed to hurt him again, he still wanted him to stay. "You promised you wouldn't leave.." He croaked, curling into a ball and turning onto his side so that he lay with his back to him.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 14, 2008 10:13:47 GMT 1
Aidan didn't answer. He just whimpered rocking back and forth. Why did he say that? Why did Chris mentioned his promise if he didn't want him here. "I don't want to leave" He finally said barely audibly after a few more minutes of rocking. "But I don't want to hurt you anymore" He tightened arms around his knees wishing he was just a kid with someone to hug him. But there has never been anyone to hug him in times like this.
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Post by Christian Tait on May 14, 2008 10:23:13 GMT 1
Christian shook his head to show that what Aidan said was wrong, clamping his eyes tightly shut. He wasn't really listening anymore but rocking back and forth like the man on the floor, his breathing coming in short wheezes. "I hurt you..I hurt you..I'm such a terrible person..I promised..and I hurt you..I deserve to go to hell..somebody kill me..I hurt you.." He cried. Tait's were known for their panic attacks.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 14, 2008 10:29:18 GMT 1
Aidan couldn't listen to it. He grabbed the first thing he had within reach, which fortunately happened to be one of Brooke's plushies, and tossed it at Christian. "Shut up" He whined. "shut up, shut up, shut uo!" He pleaded walking to the bed on all four and kneeling in front of Christian. "stop it please" he hid face in the covers
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Post by Christian Tait on May 14, 2008 10:44:04 GMT 1
Christian didn't even so much as jump as the plushie hit him squarely in the back of his head. He was clearly out of it, his mind that is. But he did manage to stop his rant when ordered to, only to be replaced by the tremors that now took control over his entire body. He crawled under the covers to try and stop them.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 14, 2008 11:22:55 GMT 1
Aidan couldn't stand it anymore. He tugged at the covers. "Chris..." He could see the other was shivering. "come here" He sat on the bed and pulled the shivering bundle into his arms. It wasn't easy as he wasn't very strong at the moment but he managed to pull Chris into his lap. "It's alright" He whispered pressing a kiss to Christian's forehead then hiding face in his hair. "calm down love" The situation really got out of control. They were both on the verge of a breakdown. Aidan, used to situations like hat at home, calmed down faster. He'd fight for both of them
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Post by Christian Tait on May 14, 2008 11:29:37 GMT 1
Unlike Aidan, Christian wasn't used to handling situations like this. He couldn't calm down knowing that he had broken his promise and hurt him."I'm such a terrible person..leave me alone..I'm better off dead" He whimpered, laying limply in Aidan's lap. He wouldn't wrap his arms around him, there was no knowing what Chris might be capable of now.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 14, 2008 11:35:35 GMT 1
Aidan just covered Christians mouth with his hand to shut him. "I'm not going anywhere. You can't make me" He said knowing it was the best thing he could say now. He didn't want to go but if Christian decided he didn't want him he'd leave. But not now. Now Christian wasn't thinking clearly. "I'm not going to leave you. I need you. Brooke needs you. We love you" He kept kissing Christian's face with each sentence
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Post by Christian Tait on May 14, 2008 11:51:30 GMT 1
Christian didn't understand Aidan's insistence or why his face was continuously being kissed. He knew for a fact that if their roles were switched he'd hate him, but yet Kinney seemed to be so calm. Chris envied him. He turned his head to the side to look at Brooke, she was sleeping so soundly. Not a care in the world lined her young face. "Take care of her for me..I don't trust myself.."
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 14, 2008 11:54:38 GMT 1
Aidan shook head. "You'll be able to take care of her yourself." He turned Christian's face so he'd look at him. "Chris, what happened...please. We need to forget about it. It's my fault. If I wasn't tht stubborn...but we can't turn back the time. We can only step over it and go on. Forget about it because we need each other. Ok?" He leaned kissing Christian's lips, holding his chin firmly so the other wouldn't turn his head now.
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Post by Christian Tait on May 14, 2008 21:33:57 GMT 1
Christian allowed the kiss to happen without protest this time but only for a brief moment. Aidan might be able to move on and forget about this but he couldn't. The image of Aidan's terrified face would be forever burned into his mind. He shook his head no and hid his face in his chest, sobbing until he forced himself into a fitful sleep.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on May 14, 2008 21:44:56 GMT 1
Aidan rocked him gently letting him cry, his own tears sliding slowly down his cheek and onto the blanket Christian was wrapped in. He held him like this until the other fell asleep. Then Aidan leaned back too, lying on the pillows with Christian hugged to his chest. He didn't fall asleep though. He was staring at the ceiling thinking. What happened was wrong. He was scared. He never expected that. And he never wanted to experience anything like that again. But he knew that even though he was scared and hurt he couldn't lose Christian
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