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Post by Aidan Kinney on Apr 13, 2008 22:54:29 GMT 1
Easier to come by. Aidan was feeling nauseous now. The world was dancing before his eyes. "That's a good score for a start" He joked laughing weakly. Gods, if what Chris said was true then...Aidan thought of all the girls he passed by in the corridors every day. How many of them slept with Christian? He wanted to ask something else but all those images made him so sick he had to run to the bathroom and throw up.
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Post by Christian Tait on Apr 13, 2008 23:19:20 GMT 1
"It's a very good score.." Christian agreed quietly. He crawled forward on his hands and knees to the bed, leaning towards him for a quick kiss but by that time Aidan had already jumped to his feet and ran to the bathroom. He sat back down feeling slightly put off. He had made Aidan sick, now that was the worst feeling in the world knowing that he had pushed him to it. He blinked back a few tears. He couldn't let Brooke see that he was upset, he was supposed to be the strongest man in her world.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on Apr 14, 2008 8:14:47 GMT 1
Aidan returned a while later afterwashign his face and brushing his teeth. He wa that type who always carries a tooth brush and a comb with him no matter what. "Sorry" He said walking to the bed on shaky legs. "I guess starting the day with a muffin, two cups of coffee and a milk shake wasn't a good idea. I'm not used to eating breakfast" He mumbled the last part. Usually he couldn't afford breakfast so he'd wait till lunch which was provided by the school cantine
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Post by Christian Tait on Apr 14, 2008 10:06:23 GMT 1
By the time that Aidan had returned, Christian had managed to wedge himself into the very small space between his bed and the dresser and curled into somewhat of a ball so that his face was hidden in his knees. It was the spot he went to shut himself down completely, he didn't go there often. Chris had always been somewhat of a happy boy. Aidan was lying, he knew that wasn't the only reason why he had ran out on him.
Brooklyn used the side of the bed to pull herself up onto her feet, a new milestone in her life that she had learned just a few days ago, and reached one hand out for Aidan to take her. Her little legs wobbling out from under her from inexperience. "Dan!"
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Post by Aidan Kinney on Apr 14, 2008 10:12:56 GMT 1
Aidan's eyes widened when he heard her say his name. A wide smile split his face. "Hey! You know my name!" He turned to Chris ready to share the hapiness with him but the man was just curled up into a ball. Aidan took Brooke's hand and walked with her to Chris. "Come on Ptincess, let's see why daddy is upset" He knelt in front of Chris and ran fingers through his hair. "Hey, handsome. Look at me"
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Post by Christian Tait on Apr 14, 2008 10:37:01 GMT 1
That was another one of those words that Christian had forced into her vocabulary in such a short period of time, something that he would regret if Aidan were to leave him anytime soon. Brooklyn grinned, feeling very accomplished that she had made her Daddy's friend happy. And as natural she got too excited about things when he took her hand to help her walk to her father, her legs moving faster than what her little body could handle so that she managed to trip and then crawl the rest of the way to her father unphased.
Christian's hand shot out the moment he felt another long fingered hand in his hair, pushing Aidan's chest to get him away from him. He refused to look. Did Aidan really expect him to act any different after running out on him like he had done? "Wouldn't want to make you sick again.." He mumbled into his knees.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on Apr 14, 2008 10:48:25 GMT 1
Aidan's eyes widened again in surprise as he was pushed away and landed on his butt. And then he frowned, eyes narrowing. "F*ck you" Aidan spat getting up and walking to the window. "you think you know me so well? you think you know what I feel and how I feel? You don't even bother to try and look at it with my eyes. I could just leave now and yet I keep staying even though you try to push me away whenever I show any signs of weakness" He turned to face the window now takign his glasses off
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Post by Christian Tait on Apr 14, 2008 11:04:39 GMT 1
Christian's head shot up as Aidan cursed at him. Not because he was shocked that he could blow up on him but because he had used such language in front of his impressionable young daughter. She was at the age that she tended to repeat everything you said. He crawled out of his little space and grabbed Brooke, holding her on his hip and narrowing his eyes at Kinney."I know good and well that I was the one who made you sick. That's all I need to know. I repulse you I get it. I know my numbers and I know who I am and if you can't handle that then just go. Don't waste my time. I'm trying to change but whats the point if you can't get over my past? I shouldn't have to fear being myself in front of you just because it might hurt your feelings. Be a man Kinney!"
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Post by Aidan Kinney on Apr 14, 2008 12:56:12 GMT 1
Aidan shook head grimacing. He didn't like fighting. It would always remind him of his parents. That's not what he wanted in a relationship but maybe that was the truth? Maybe all relationships were like that and he was just living in a dreamland? "You're an idiot, you know?" He said softly as his world started to fall down. "Didn't it ever occur to you that I might be scaerd? Not repulsed but simply scared? Scaredo fo what I could hear? Scared of the questions I was asking? That maybe I was just so nervous it made my stomach sick? Especially with the food it had. Or that if I couldn't handle your answes I'd have been already gone?" But he would be, wouldn't he? Chris would tell him to leave now. It was over and he ruined it.
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Post by Christian Tait on Apr 14, 2008 21:14:04 GMT 1
Christian wasn't really listening, the was an odd ringing in his ears and his head felt dizzy. He had to sit down to keep himself from falling with his daughter in his arms. For the second time that day he feared that they were over. "You're scared of my past? That doesn't make any sense. You are my future now and so far I haven't done anything to give you a reason to have any doubts in me. If you can't handle that even then please just leave..I have everything that I want right here. I told you when I met you that I could handle living without love"
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Post by Aidan Kinney on Apr 14, 2008 21:23:34 GMT 1
And here it was. Just like he expected. Aidan only half hear what the other man said but the words
'please leave' were clear enough. He turned around and looked at Christian with eyes filled with tears, the glasses in his hands. "No, you haven't given me any doubts. But I didn't know anything about you. I wanted to know because I didn't want your past to haunt me. I didn't want to ran into one of your previous..." he couldn't say the word lover. "and not be prepared for...I'd rather find out from you than from the others.But it still made me nervous. I'm just weak" he wasn't making much sense now. His voice was breating. He turned around and walked to the door slowly. "I'm sorry"
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Post by Christian Tait on Apr 14, 2008 21:33:17 GMT 1
Aidan was somewhat wrong. Christian had only one lover in his lifetime and he was getting ready to walk out the door, everyone else were merely one night stands that he used to replace the feeling that something was missing. Aidan was leaving, Chris really had scared him off. He felt as if the wind had been knocked out of him. They were officially over? Barely a week in and he had already ruined everything.
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Post by Aidan Kinney on Apr 14, 2008 22:06:59 GMT 1
Aidan's hand was already on the door handle ready to open but something inside him hade him stop. He turned around and leaned his back against the door looking at his first love. "Try to understand me....please" He said quietly and slid down the door sitting on the floor with arms wrapped around his thin frame
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Post by Christian Tait on Apr 14, 2008 22:16:59 GMT 1
"Understand what Aidan? The only thing I understand right now is that I'm a whore and you are scared. What am I supposed to do?" Christian asked angrily. It was a lot easier to try and stay mad than to break down in front of him. He managed to get to his feet without collapsing from dizziness, setting Brooke down in her crib so that he didn't have to look after her as closely while he was in this state of confusion. "I thought you were leaving?"
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Post by Aidan Kinney on Apr 14, 2008 22:25:45 GMT 1
Aidan just shook his head and sobbed. He couldn't speak now. He didn't want to leave. He loved Chris. He knew that even though he'd never say it aloud. For him Chris wasn't a whore. If only he could make the other man understand that he was simply scared. Not repulsed by Christian's past. Just scared that one day he'd meet one of Christian's one night stand and didn't know that and they'd start laughing at him or say something hurtful. That's why he wanted to know. But the conversation was so serious he was shaking like a leaf
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