Facing The Facts [Tony]

[Tony Hoult]

"Well. It's not like we're together. So if you wanted to like, give the baby up for adoption, or abort it, then that's really not my decision." It wasn't a decision he wanted to make. Reese was pregnant, but he wouldn't force her into anything. After all, if she wanted him to, he could just stay away and have her raise the baby on her own. He felt uncomfortable with her crying, wondering if he should hug her.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Sure, rub it in. Why not? This day was already shot to hell. They weren’t together but that was his choice, not hers. “I don’t know Tony, I don’t know what to do.” An abortion would be the best option for them, they were so young! But was that fair to the baby? Taking it away just cause that was more convenient? Swallowing the big lump that had formed in her throat, she rubbed her hands over her sides. “What do you want?” She couldn’t do this alone.

[Tony Hoult]

"I...Reese, do you really want me on board here? I mean...I'm not exactly father-material. Let's face it, I would most likely drop the kid the moment it was put into my arms" Because he was clumsy, and didn't know how to handle it, and situations like that confused him. "But if you want, like...money, support, just tell me, yea? Tell me what you want from me."

[Reese Mackenzie]

Turning her face away she let her head hang, while her arms fell to her sides. The silent tears running down her cheeks turned into soft sobs. For a moment her hair shielded her face from him, while she pressed her hands to her face. Her small frame shook but not just cause of the pregnancy, cause of everything that caused all the pain and anger inside of her. Reese looked up when Tony said he wanted her to tell him what she wanted from him. “Don’t you get it by now? You. I want you.” her face wet from tears, her voice a bit higher than normal. She didn’t just want his support, she wanted him in her life. To be hers.

[Tony Hoult]

"You want to be my girlfriend?" Now that was a surprise. Even more so than the pregnancy. And she had him confused. Didn't she just...But that night that they..."Reese, what the hell? You say I'm playing with people, but you're doing the same thing. After that night we shared, you were the one to tell me that I had to leave."

[Reese Mackenzie]

What the hell? Now he was accusing her of playing people? “Cause I wanted you to be you Tony. You said you weren’t a good person to date when I said I cared. And the next day you were so sweet. I just…” she paused, looking away for a second…feeling her heart break all over again, “I was scared okay?”

[Tony Hoult]

"Well didn't you ever think that maybe I was too? Afraid of what I was feeling?" God, how did he get into this emotional crap. God. The fact that he cared about Reese didn't mean he could be faithful or anything like it. He couldn't. He wasn't made for monogamy when sex was the main force in life. "Reese...let's be honest with each other for once, yea?"

[Reese Mackenzie]

“What do you want me to say Tony? That I like you? That whenever my phone rings I hope it’s you calling? That I think of you all the time? That I get nervous when you’re close to me and that I feel al fuzzy on the inside when you look at me?” What else did he wanted to hear from her? She couldn’t be more honest than she already was. Her eyes showed a glimpse of despair, besides the confusing and heartache that was present inside of her. “Dammit Tony, I’m so fcuking in love with you that it hurts! How much more honesty do you need from me?”

[Tony Hoult]

"I think that's enough" His voice was quiet, and Tony took her hand in his. A simple gesture, but maybe it would say more than the regular things he could say. Words were only words. It was all they would ever be. Actions spoke so much louder sometimes, though even then he could put a lie in them. Or betrayal at least. "I care for you, Mack. I do."

[Reese Mackenzie]

She let him take her hand, her eyes locked on them as she felt his fingers graze her skin. This wasn’t fair, it just wasn’t fair. Her sobs had died down but every now and then a tear ran down her cheek. The baby, Tony, dancing, working, mom, Graham…right now it was just all too much. Her bottom lip trembled when he said he cared for her. “…but as a friend right?” God. Why did she have to fall for the wrong guys again?

[Tony Hoult]

"As a friend, yes" Tony gently grazed her skin with his fingers, wiping away a tear. "But..." He frowned a bit. Unsure of himself, and he didn't like it one bit. "Also as more than that." If they were really going to be parents, the least he should do is tell her the truth about things. As unpleasant and uncomfortable as it was.

[Reese Mackenzie]

She felt her heart fall the moment he agreed it was as a friend. No, she couldn’t do this...she just couldn’t sit here with him holding her hand and telling her he didn’t want her as his girlfriend. One of the soft sobs returned and Reese was more than ready to just walk out of the room...and just…leave. Yet, there came a ‘but’ that forced her to stay right where she was. Scared eyes locked with his, “More?” she asked carefully. How more? Like a special friend? Or was he feeling all the things she felt? Or…what?! “Like…how?”

[Tony Hoult]

"Like...I like you. A lot." Tony hated seeing that scared look on her face. It wasn't right. Reese deserved to be happy. She really deserved it. And he wanted to make her happy, no matter how much he would fcuk it up. He would. Because that's who he was, that's what he did. He ruined things, often enough for people to be mad at him, but then he smiled and was forgiven.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Reese wasn’t sure whether she should smile and be happy or still feel hurt by the idea he didn’t like her the way she liked him. “What does that mean Tony? That you lay in bed at night wondering if I think of you or that you just like spending time with me? A lot.” If he didn’t feel the way she felt than what use did have for him to like her? It still wouldn’t change anything. “…just tell me. Whatever it is just tell me…” she pleaded. She needed to know.

[Tony Hoult]

"Both. I like spending time with you and I wonder what you think of me, more often than I should. I just...I don't know if it can mean anything because you know my reputation. That hasn't changed. I'll still hurt you, even if I have a crush on you." More like, he was in love with her, but that was something he couldn't really say because it was such a strange feeling. Such a strange thing to be saying.