Surprise!!!! [Graham]

[Reese Mackenzie]

After spending time with Christian and Brooklyn last week Reese knew that keeping the baby was a given. It wasn't like she would actualluy have an abortion but she had thought of giving the baby away. Now, she knew that also wasn't an option cause A: she knew what it was like to have this feeling something was missing from your life cause you did not know your parents, B: She wouldn't be able to give her baby away and pretend it didn't excists and C: She knew she would already love the baby before it would be born.

Now that Christian knew and Tony she knew she had to tell Graham today. Cause if he would find out through someone else he would be really upset and hurting her brother was the last thing she wanted to do right now. Lord knew they had not been the best of siblings lately.

Freshening up a little in the common bathrooms Reese was about to leave and go look for her brother when someone walked in...

[Graham Kerr]

Graham dropped his shirt the moment he came in, not even noticing that Reese was in there with him. There were marks on his wrists, some neat, little lines, other ones frayed and angry, still in the healing process. He'd had a bad week, watching Juli walk around like everything was fine, being turned down for a job he'd been hoping would take the place of his regular jobs. He sighed, running fingers through his hair, trying to walk towards the baths when he noticed Reese. Fcuk.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Her eyes widened, locked on Graham’s body and stayed locked while he moved around in the bathroom, right until he noticed that she had noticed him. What the fcuk had happened? His wrists were covered in red marks and Reese really did not like the sight of that. Someone naïve would think he would be attacked by a cat or something but Reese wasn’t that naïve just yet.

Without saying as much as one word Reese moved over to her brother, wrapped her arms around his waist and just hugged herself against him. She had missed him a lot these last few weeks and she had been sorry about them fighting. Reese wasn’t sure if she should think anything behind the marks on his wrists so instead of demanding him to explain she simply said two words she had been wanting to say to him for a while now. “I’m sorry.”

[Graham Kerr]

Graham was shocked when she didn't start yelling at him immediately - she was scary like mum sometimes. Instead she wrapped herself around him, hugging him tight and giving him no room to breathe for a moment. He wrapped arms around her in return, careful because she was tiny and because his wrists were still hurting. "I'm sorry too" He really was. He hated fighting with her. She was his girl, his Mack, and he would do anything for her. Anything in the whole fcuking world. "I love you."

[Reese Mackenzie]

She closed her eyes for a moment, just standing still in the middle of the bathrooms and just hugged her brother. “I love you too little brother.” Well he could be –way- taller than she was but he would always be her little brother. Nothing would ever change that. “How bad are you hurt?” she asked softly while she looked up at him. He was hurt, she could tell, and it weren’t only his wrists that caused him pain. How did she know? She just did, cause that is what sisters did. They just knew stuff.

[Graham Kerr]

Graham buried his face in her hair, hugging her back and holding onto her. He'd missed her so much. Missed his girl that lit up his day, made him feel happy and relaxed and confident. He'd lost so much of himself along the way that it scared him sometimes. Looking at her eyes, the sad way she gazed at him, he had a hard time not averting his eyes. Instead he bit his lip. "Physically I'm alright. It don't hurt much." That was not why he did it. The pain. It wasn't why he did it though sometimes the physical was easier to handle than the rest.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Reese softly rubbed her hands up and down his back. He was really hurt, like truly hurt and not cause someone had said something mean to him. It was way more than that and she was scared someone had broken her little brothers heart. Of course that person would be decked by her in the next few hours. Seriously. “I didn’t mean the scratches Gray…” her voice was soft, loving and filled with worry. “What happened?” Or more importantly, who the fcuk had hurt him?!

[Graham Kerr]

"It's nothing. It's stupid. I'm stupid." Stupid to think that someone like Juli Janvier could ever want something more than a one or multiple night stand. Stupid to think that he could ever be good enough, that he'd be worthy of a relationship when he was destined to fcuk everything up. "I'm fine, Reese. I am." Juli didn't want him, and he shouldn't. Even Tony was better for him. At least he managed to make him smile, and not look this hurt and avoid him.

[Reese Mackenzie]

“No you’re not Graham. Neither. You’re not stupid and you’re not fine.” She knew him, she knew when he was upset, she knew when he was scared. Reese just knew. Always. “Is it Juli?” Although she hoped it wasn’t him, that the dancer had not broken her brothers heart. That he had not toyed with it like Reese was scared he might have done. Her eyes stayed on her brother, almost pleading for him to let her in. To let her help. Cause Lord knew she had to, cause she knew she would hurt him also by telling her about the baby and Tony. And that she couldn’t do now while he was this upset.

[Graham Kerr]

"Isn't it always?" Graham rubbed at his forehead, before running fingers through his hair. "It's fine. I'm just...I'm just having a hard time getting over him. But I will, right? I'll get over him eventually? I mean. You have. You're over Tony," Oh, if only. That was the one thing that made him feel slightly better. The fact that Tony wasn't with her, that they were at least both single. Though that also meant he could be fcuking Juli again. Which was something he definitely didn't want to think about.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Reese pulled away from him, but still stayed close enough to try and squeeze out of him what was going on. “Yeah course you will, just don’t hurt yourself in the process honey. He’s not worth that.” Graham may find Juli to be amazing but the kid wasn’t amazing enough to make Graham hurt himself. No one was amazing enough for that. She just smiled weakly when he mentioned her being over Tony. Ignoring the comment she tugged her hands in her pockets. “..and I’m here for you Gray. Whenever, and for whatever. You know that right?” Oh he was going to flip a nut when he would find out about the pregnancy.

[Graham Kerr]

"But I want him, Reese. I don't want to get over him. I want him to like me. To see me, and want to date me." He buried his face in her hair, holding her close to him. He didn't notice that something was off with his girl. Not now, when he was so upset and worried about Juli, about wanting him and that somehow being a bad thing. "But I'm not good enough..."

[Reese Mackenzie]

Not more than a second ago, when she had pulled away, he was pulling her close to him. The way he was talking, the way he showed her he was hurt made her eyes tear up. Juli had hurt her little brother and it made her furious inside. “I know honey and that’s what I whished for you to happen too.” Wrapping her arms around him again she let him find comfort he needed. “Sweety he’s just too blind to see what is right in front of him. You’re way better than what he deserves and if he doesn’t see you for the amazing guy that you are than that is his loss. I know that is not what you want to hear, and trust me, I know it really hurts. You should not be walking after some guy, guys should be lining up for you. And I know they will if you will let them.”

[Graham Kerr]

Gray wiped at his eyes, embarrassed that she made him cry. "I just...I love him. I didn't think it would be such a big deal if he rejected me, but it is. It hurts so much that sometimes I just want to cut it all out. I don't want to have a heart if it's broken." Couldn't he give it to someone? Let someone else feel this pain because he didn't want it anymore. He didn't want to have to look in the mirror and hate himself for not being attractive enough for Juli.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Lifting up her hand she brushed a stray tear from his cheek. “Love sucks and it hurts. But if you don’t take a chance you will never get to have all the good stuff either.” She was being a hypocrite, Reese knew it. She didn’t think she deserved love, or at least she had though she hadn’t deserved and had not put her heart out there. Now she wasn’t so sure anymore. “I’m so sorry Graham, I whish I could make it all go away for you.” She really did, Reese truly did.