For the Sake of My Sanity [Juli]

[Graham Kerr]

Graham looked around the room, hands on his hips as he licked at his bottom lip. It was messy as always, and instead of just chairs and tables there was a little room cleared, for anyone who wanted to dance. The stereo was hooked up and music filled his ears as he went to his dorm room to get the alcohol he'd stacked up.

Gray knew how to party, and since the last party had landed him in Juli's bed, well...he wouldn't mind experiencing that again, though it wasn't the plan of the evening. No. The plan was to get drunk, get over this weird funk he'd been feeling whenever he thought of the dancer over the summer. Their night together, well he would have loved to call it amazing, but he had no idea what the fcuk even happened. All he knew was that it had made things awkward between the two of them, and he wanted that feeling to disappear.

Plopping down in a couch he waited for his friends to come. They all knew about the party, since it was the first night back, and that screamed party. Especially with Gray around, who always got his hands on the cheapest liquor and some drugs for those who were into it.

[Julian Janvier]

Juli appeared in the room with Tony as his date. Or some sick thing like that according to Tone. His best friend had a werid sense of humour. He just kept saying how he wanted to see his face when they showed up together. And he had tossled his hair. "You look like you've just been shagged," He had told him, but nothing, and whatever Tony was planning he really didn't know.

He smiled seeing Gray and went up to him, kissing his cheek easily, "Hey Gray. Welcome back."

[Graham Kerr]

Graham noticed things, like he always did when it came to Juli. Tony draped all over him, hair tousled and lips that kind of red colour that you only got from heavy kissing. He averted his eyes, downing about half a bottle of vodka in the little time it took the dancer to come over and kiss his cheek. He closed his eyes for a moment, the smell of his cologne bringing back vague memories of their time together.

"Hey" His voice sounded easy enough, at least for those people he only called friends. Reese would notice, and so would some of his best friends, but well, Juli wasn't one of them. They hung out, though Tony had been claiming him more and more lately, as if he'd been expecting something to happen between the two of them if he left Gray alone long enough with him. Not bloody likely. It had taken a night of extreme drinking to get them in bed together.

Or that's what he assumed. Juli didn't like him, and as long as he kept telling himself that, he was okay. He just couldn't hope for anything more. Not as long as Tony was there to ruin things between them. Insulting him when nobody was paying attention, showing off Juli as if he was some damn trophy. He'd even been cocky enough to claim that he 'won' him.

"Had a good summer?" Lame. Very lame, but fcuk, he was uncomfortable around the dancer now. He wasn't sure if they should acknowledge what had happened or just ignore it. It was kind of hard to forget about his virginity being taken that night. And he wasn't sure if he should regret it or not.

[Julian Janvier]

Juli smiled at him sitting close and snatching the bottle back. "It was alright, Tone and I spent it galavanting around London." He said laughing lightly. "I took him to his first gay bar." He said but didn't mention that he was working at said bar. He hadn't told many people, like Tony was the only other person that knew.

He liked Gray, alot. But the kid always looked far too innocent for him to sin his paws into. He remember the party. Everyone speculated about it, but he knew what happened, even if Gray didn't. He had felt so stupid afterwards. Because there was no way a kid like that fell for one like him.

[Graham Kerr]

Tony immediately draped himself over Juli again, smiling innocently at Graham as he tugged the dancer into his lap, lips on his ear, whispering something only for the other to hear. "Watch it, babe. He's got a boner for you." He then stole the bottle from Graham to down it, grinning because he knew the message he sent out. Everything Gray thought he could have would be stolen from him. Including the little toy in his lap.

Graham tried to ignore Tony, tried to ignore how he claimed Juli. He really should have been used to it by now. Tony was all over Juli, had been for a long time but it had never really bothered him before. Sometimes he suspected that the singer knew about his crush, or about what had happened that night. "Sounds like fun."

He opened up another bottle, watching other kids pour in. Sid was standing in a corner, smiling and nodding his head at him, a beer in his hand as he watched the girls dance. Gray wished he could do the same. Watch the girls and not feel so jealous over what had never meant more than a casual hook-up.

[Julian Janvier]

Juli almost yelped when he was pulled like that. He hated more then anything when Tony did that. But he had been drinking before the party and was alot more relaxed then he would have been normally. He smiled as Tony said that giggling and shaking his head. He didn't believe it for a moment.

He took the bottle from Tony attaching it to his mouth, and keeping Tony's hands away. And when he say Cassie, he smiled, going up to her to wrap arms around her thin frame and pulled her out to Dance. They always caused quite the commotion. Good freinds dancing suggestively against each other always did that.

When the song was over, he kissed her cheek moving back to sit on Tony, breathless and slipped his shirt off. "She wears me out." He said winking at Gray.

[Graham Kerr]

Graham watched him during the song, jaw clenched when Tony told him about all the suggestive movements Juli made in the bedroom, whispering things about the dancer being his and that he'd never fall for a kid like him. Said that Juli liked to be satisfied, not spend his valuable time teaching Gray how to give a proper blowjob or a fcuk.

He smiled vaguely when Juli came back, tugging off his shirt. He tried not to look, as Tony slipped his hands over those perfect abs, sucking on a sensitive spot on the others neck. Really, did they have to do this right in front of everyone? "She's a good dancer" So he kept looking at Cassie instead. She was nice. A little odd, but definitely nice and more perceptive than anyone knew.

[Julian Janvier]

Juli shrugged off Tony and shook his head, "I've told you about that." He said moving off him and planting himself into Gray's lap. "If you can't behave I'm staying over here. Right Gray?" He said looking down at him. SUch blue eyes. They left him breathless at times. And he reached out fingers to touch his cheek tenderly. And odd smile on his face.

Chris showed up with his own drink and Anwar in tow. He squeezed between Michelle and Jal while Anwar said hi to Sid, watching the antics of their friends. Cassie held back for moment, eyes on Juli as if she kenw more then she was letting on and then turned and went to Michelle.

[Graham Kerr]

Graham forced back a nervous laugh, trying to act as if this was nothing out of the ordinary. If only the other parts of his anatomy would be under his control, then he'd be fine. As long as Juli didn't wiggle around. He smiled easily, it was hard not to when the other was looking at him like that. "You know you're always safe here"

Great. Yea. That was like...the smartest thing he could say. Now, instead of thinking that maybe, in some alternate universe, he might be interested, he immediately cut it off. He really didn't want to be the man that other guys felt safe with. He was so sick of people seeing him as a best friend or a brother.

[Julian Janvier]

He smiled at him, leaning in to kiss his cheek, but catching the side of his mouth. "You know, I think I will stay right here." He said arms going around his neck as his stradled him more. "You are very safe. And I like that."

He looked back at Tony, "You don't know how to treat me, so Angel here is going to take care of me. Isn't that right?" He said turning back to Gray, smile on his face.

[Graham Kerr]

Graham smiled back at him, one arm casually moving around his waist as Juli shifted in his lap. The near kiss made him think of their drunk adventure, about the way Juli's tongue had made paintings on the roof of his mouth as his hands touched him, reverently almost. He'd never felt beautiful or wanted until that night. He didn't trust his voice when Juli addressed him and just nodded.

Tony glared at the two of them, but rearranged his features soon enough. "Fine by me." He stood up, catching the top of Juli's head in a kiss. "I'll see you later, no doubt, after you've worn out the little kid. I doubt he'll last long enough to satisfy you." A smirk graced his features as he moved off towards Sid and Cassie.

[Julian Janvier]

Juli laughed, "You're such a sweet talker baby." He called after Tony, and looked down at Gray. "How bout we get some drinks in us, yea, mate?" He said and moved off him only long enough to get them a bottle of tequila and some limes. He straddled him again and smiled deviously, "Gray, anyone ever teach you to take body shots?" HE asked with a smile.

Cassie watched Juli, a dreamy look on her face as Tony apporached them, "Oh wow, hey Tony. Isn't Juli just, wow, really lovely? I mean, like, wow, he seems happy with Gray." She looked at him with knowing eyes.

[Graham Kerr]

"Body shots?" Juli was going to kill him, wasn't he? He wasn't nearly drunk enough for this. Not drunk enough at all, yet just far enough along to not care about all the other people in the room. It was easy to see that he only had eyes for Juli. Could anyone really blame him? When those eyes were sparkling like that, the guy was a goddamn vision.

Tony regarded Cassie coolly. "Wow, Cassie" He made his voice sound like hers "did you like, wow, eat a lot?" He ignored the glare Sid was giving him, and just grinned at him. If his friend had a crush on the blonde twig then he should get a move on. "Lovely"

[Julian Janvier]

He smiled and got off him long enough to push him onto the couch and taking his shirt off, he smiled, placing the line in Gray's mouth, "Hold it there." He said softly, and put a line of salt on his chest, spilling the tequilla into his bellybutton. He licked the salt off fist, drank the tequilla and sucked the lime out of Gray's mouth. The headyness of the alcohl made him brave. And he let the lime fall between them and kissed him.

Cassie's smile faltered and Michelle who had been close enough heard him. She made her way to him, "Don't take it out on her you wanker just because Juli's finally opening his eyes and seeing it's Gray he wants instead of a twat like you." She said kicking him in the balls. She grabbed Cassie's hand and pulled her towards Jal and Chris.

[Graham Kerr]

Graham had about enough time to gasp when his shirt was being tossed away, and then there was a lime inbetween his teeth and oh God, Juli's tongue down his chest, dipping into his belly button before coming up to do away with the fruit. His lips parted on instinct when Juli kissed him like that, purring into the kiss. People were watching him, but he didn't care. They would know he was gay now, but it didn't matter as long as Juli kept kissing him like that.

Tony doubled over in pain, clutching his privates and glaring at Michelle. He needed something to say, words that would give him the advantage again, a way of hurting the people that made him look like a loser. He could care less about Juli liking Gray, but the dancer was his and that was all that mattered. "You could stand to lose a few pounds yourself Michelle. Or will your tits get even more unbalanced if you do?"