A thousand miles (Ryan)

[Jesse Huber]

It had been maybe a few weeks since he'd gotten together with Ryan. They'd really hit it off at the end of the summer. He'd been looking for him all morning though, checking all their usual spots. Trying to remember if there happened to be any that he was missing. After searching almost everywhere he'd just decided that maybe searching the rooms of the school would be a good idea. He needed to work on a new song anyway, actually..

He'd been working on one, one that was inspired by his boyfriend, Ryan. He was hoping to show it to him, sing what he had for him and ask him if he'd maybe like to go out with him later. Just dinner, a movie maybe? A walk? Anything at all. He just wanted to be with him for a little while, hence his constant searching for him. This was the fourth room he'd been into, next was the fifth. He poked his head in and looked around.

[Ryan Robins]

Ryan had been talking to a friend of his in the music department, who had left a moment or two ago, leaving him alone to rest his face against the glass. He wasn't feeling too good, needed his medication, but he'd left it in his dorm. It would be a good idea to go up there, but he didn't feel like going. He was tired, and confused, and his head was killing him. All he wanted was some rest, a few moments to relax and then find his love to spend a nice evening together.

[Jesse Huber]

Success! He'd finally found him. "Ryan." He smiled fondly at his boyfriend and slid into the room, catching him around the waist and spinning him to kiss him softly. He'd finally found him. Which was quite a good thing. "Hello." He let his hands slide over his boyfriends body and gently gave his shoulders a squeeze, pressing a kiss to his neck. "Have you had a good day? I've missed you." Jesse nuzzled him a second later, just enjoying relaxing with him close.

[Ryan Robins]

"Mmmm, hey there" Ryan cuddled up to him happily, arms sliding around his waist. He'd slipped from the window sill, leaning against the wall and pulling Jesse close. "I have a head ache, but I'm alright. Just need to get some water and I'll be fine." Water and his pills...then he'd be just perfect. "How have you been? I've missed you too. Where have you been hiding?"

[Jesse Huber]

Jesse settled in between his legs and ducked his head down, kissing him softly. He was quite a bit taller than Ryan but it didn't make much of a difference to him. Not at all really. “Good, water is on the checklist then.” He smiled. “I've been good. Working on a new song, brought it with me. I've been hiding in my room. Not really hiding.” He chuckled. “Been looking for you though. I've got a question. Come out with me, tonight, to a movie, dinner, a walk, anything you want.”

[Ryan Robins]

"I'd love to" Ryan smiled, kissing him back, arms wrapped around his waist. It felt so great to have a boyfriend, to have someone with him, that loved him for who he was. Even though he didn't know the entire truth. "I need to clean up though. Get a shower, put on some new clothes. So I can go out all proper and fancy." He smiled, kissing his lips again.

[Jesse Huber]

Jesse smiled brightly and nodded his head, nuzzling his lips affectionately. “Alright, meet you in front of the school in about an hour or so?” He kissed him back, holding him to him, not quite ready to let him go and have his shower yet. “Any idea where you'd like to go?”

[Ryan Robins]

"Anywhere is fine" Ryan grinned, holding his boyfriend close. "How about we change that up a little? And get you to go in that shower with me?" They were pretty sexual, which was fine with him as long as Jesse cuddled with him and made him feel loved. His freak out had actually led to Jesse admitting his feelings that night. Which brought them closer than ever before and still he couldn't tell him about his illness. It would be too much, too soon.

[Jesse Huber]

“Mm.. that sounds like quite a good plan to me.” He snickered. “I'd say I need a shower too.” He'd been more than happy to admit that he'd liked him, more than happy to have Ryan as a boyfriend. After all he liked the guy. It wasn't meaningless for him. Always did he cuddle with Ryan, as much as he could. Gently he kissed him, smile on his face. “We'll go with the flow then yeah.”

[Ryan Robins]

"Sounds like a plan" Ryan slipped his hand down Jesse's arm, lacing their fingers. "Jess?" He looked up at his boyfriend. Biting his lip for a moment, wondering what to say. If he should even say something. "You like me, right? I mean...you'd even like me if things got complicated, wouldn't you?" Would Jesse still want to be with them when he showed him the bad stuff? All of the bad stuff? Would he understand the way Grant did?

[Jesse Huber]

He didn't understand where this was coming from but he nodded his head and smiled at him. “Of course I like you. Yeah, I would. Why?” He felt a little confused, had something happened? Was there something he really didn't know about, that he should? Jesse gave Ryan's hand a little squeeze and held him to him. He could try to understand at the very least.

[Ryan Robins]

"Remember that one morning? When I had to leave, like...when I overslept and freaked out?" His parents hadn't known where he was, and they'd called his cell over twenty times before he woke up in the arms of his lover. They could never know about Jesse or they'd pull him from the school for sure. "My parents made me go see a doctor."

[Jesse Huber]

Jesse nodded his head and listened to him. His eyes widened and filled with curiosity. "For being gay?" He chuckled a little and shook his head, behaving now. "Why did they make you see a doctor, whats wrong?" At the moment everything bad was going through his head, he wasn't sure what Ryan had.

[Ryan Robins]

"No. Not that. They don't know. I mean...they do, but they ignore it and think I only sleep with girls. If I mess up, and they'll know...then they might make me go see someone." Ryan tried to smile a bit. "I just...they want me to see a therapist. They thought I needed...some sorting out." He held onto Jesse, face pressed against the others collarbone. "Because sometimes I get...weird. Like I'm not me. You know?" God, this was hard.

[Jesse Huber]

“See someone? Like yeah. One of those.” He shook his head and ran his fingers through his boyfriends hair, kissing the top of his head. “Some sorting out. Like theres something wrong with you mentally?” He paused. “Well we all get weird and feel like we aren't who we are. Thats normal though.” Yeah he wasn't getting it as well as he should be.