Why Do These Things Always Happen To me?[Ryan]

[Reese Mackenzie]

Well it was official. She was screwed. Or to be more exact, she had been screwed and now faced the consequences. And it was all Tony’s fault, or so Reese had decided it would be today. Course she knew it wasn’t all his fault but today she felt like it was. And she was going to need to tell him, sooner or later. She was just scared to do so.

So Reese had gone to see if Dane was around, if there was one person who wouldn’t look at her with disappointment in his eyes or would yell at her it would be him. He just listened to her rant, let her be all emotional, comfort her and then would get mad. But he wouldn’t yell like she was scared Graham would do and right now she couldn’t handle that.

Or maybe she just didn’t want to.

With a sigh Reese plopped down on the couch in the common room. Dane wasn’t in his room, his bag was missing so he was probably out again. God, could that guy never be in his room when you wanted him to?! Pulling her legs up the couch she hid her face in her hands for a moment, rubbing her face while trying to figure out what she should do now. Wait for Dane to come back or to just go and turn Tony’s world up and down.

[Ryan Robins]

Ryan walked into the Common Room sighing, a pencil behind his ear and an apple in his hand. He looked at it miserably, not feeling hungry in the slightest. Besides, being anorexic meant he was a cheap date, so Grant shouldn't make him feel like he had to eat. Not that he did, only he kind of wanted to. He could see it in his boyfriends eyes when he looked at him. Aside from attraction there was always this hint of disappointment - or that's what he saw in it anyway - and disappointment was something he couldn't handle very well.

He wanted to fall down on a couch, bury his head in his hands and pretend he was a little kid again so that he believed that nobody could see him if he couldn't see them. Only when he came to his favorite spot, there was already a girl on it, a very familiar girl that made him smile despite her posture. "You know, I can still see you..."

[Reese Mackenzie]

What to do? Dane would be understanding, Graham probably pissed off and disappointed, Mickey worried and Tony? Well Tony would probably not pull her into his arms and kiss her. No that is what her dream-Tony would do, reality-Tony would probably freak out. And Reese herself? She was freaking out and scared beyond believe right now.

“That’s cause you are allowed to?” she replied softly, knowing very well it was Ryan. Sweet Ryan, he was such a great guy. For Ryan she wasn’t hiding, for everyone else she was. Including her mom. The woman would disown her if she ever found out. Pulling her head back up she smiled a little at the painter. “Everything alright honey?”

[Ryan Robins]

Ryan sat down on the couch and tugged her into his lap. Small as he was, he could still show some of his strength, so he pulled her down with him, running fingers through her hair and then down her face. "You look so tired, baby" And still, she looked gorgeous. He liked painting the fragility about women. How they looked when they weren't trying to be perfect. That was the most beautiful thing to him.

"Who are you hiding from? And what are you hiding?" He presented her with the apple and a little mischievous smile, trying to at least get some hint of a smile from her. He always brought her something to eat. Why? He wouldn't know. It had just started like that one day, and now he did it whenever they met up.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Reese didn’t try to stop him as he pulled her into his lap and just let herself softly fall against him. She snuggled into his arms and just let her head rest against his shoulder for a moment. “I’m alright, I just have a lot of things on my mind lately.” Which seemed to be the case with like everyone around her these days. Which is why she hadn’t told anyone she was deeply in love with Tony nor did anyone know she had slept with him. Yet.

Mickey knew she had thing for Tony, Dane knew, Graham might and Tony…well Tony knew she was in love with him. Which sucked even more since he just thought of her as a nice toy to play with every now and then. And that hurt, really hurt. Even more so since last week when a lot of things had become clear.

“I was just looking for Dane but he’s not around. Don’t worry about me Ry, you know I’m always just fine.” Which was true, until she screwed herself over so bad she couldn’t handle it on her own. Like now. Taking the apple from his she just held it in her hands, not feeling the need to actually eat something today. Bloody nausea!

“You haven’t answered my question yet, so spill.” She said, her brown eyes searching for his.

[Ryan Robins]

"Trade off? You'll tell me the truth and I'll stop lying for once?" His voice was softer now, as he gently stroked her back. She looked sick, her face wasn't lighting up the way it usually did and if he didn't know any better he'd say she was looking almost broken-hearted. But who could have done something as amazingly stupid as not falling for this girl? If he wasn't gay he definitely would have been into her. In the past he had been, long before the mess and Jesse and way, way before they'd become friends.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Reese nodded, knowing that he already knew something was wrong. She usually was good in hiding things but with Ryan she knew she didn’t really had to hide things. Although she knew how tough things were for him lately, she didn’t want to dump her worries onto him. He should focus on himself, not on the mess she created for herself.

She buried her face into his neck, liking it how he stroked her back. It made her stomach calm down a little, and well…it just felt nice. Reaching out for his other hand Reese just held it with hers. “Tell me something that is true.” She softly said, leaving it up to him what he was going to tell her or not.