I Wont Stop Holding On [Tony]

[Tony Hoult]

"Because I don't like to see you like this?" It was only half a question, like the smile he gave her was only half there before he turned to walk towards the kitchen. He busied himself there, making her tea, folding a little rose out of a napkin. Neat little trick and it made girls swoon, which was just an added bonus.

He kicked the door back open with his foot, entering with two giant mugs of tea and the little rose between his teeth, grinning at her and giving her a little wink as if to say that he was trying to cheer her up.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Reese just nodded silently and let him walk off to get tea. So maybe he wasn’t high or drunk, maybe he was just being nice? For some reason Reese found that a bit difficult to understand, that he might care enough to actually want to help her. Couldn’t he see that he was causing her to be this way? Was he that blind or was she so good in covering it all up?

She hadn’t moved when he had gotten back, still sitting in the same position as a few minutes ago. A faint smile tugged on her lips when she noticed the rose and the small wink. He really was a charmer wasn’t he? Getting up to sit on her knees Reese reached out to grab the rose from his lips, then gently holding his chin while she pressed a soft kiss on his lips. “Thank you.” Pulling back right after while taking a mug from his hands. The small rose laying besides her on the bed. “I didn’t know you like tea.”

[Tony Hoult]

"There's a lot you don't know about me" Tony smiled a bit, sitting down next to her and leaning against the headboard of the bed. Relaxed posture, not at all like the composed person he usually was, trying to get the best out of every situation. He tended to over-analyze things but found that with Reese it was often difficult to predict what was going to happen. And he liked it that way.

[Reese Mackenzie]

True, she didn’t know a lot about him, but that went both ways. “Tell me something I don’t know. Besides you liking tea.” She said softly, her back half turned towards Tony. Warming her hands on the mug she bit her lip, whishing she either had more tequila or that he would tell her he was in love with her. Cause this? This just hurt.

[Tony Hoult]

"Something you don't know-" Tony paused there for a moment, a small smile playing around his lips. Reese wasn't looking at him, so he could say anything and still manage to make it sound convincing. "Well, first off there's the fact that I love to read. Philosophical stuff, not comic books." Not that reading comics was a bad thing, it just wasn't his area of interest. "There's a lot of other stuff. How about we do a trade off? I tell you something, you tell me something." He tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear, lips close to her skin. "I'll even let you in on another secret, though that's really more your secret than mine..." His fingertips lingered on her collarbone for a moment, breath warm against her earlobe. "I'm looking at the most beautiful girl in school right now."

[Reese Mackenzie]

Wow. The boy loved the read, lucky him. Reese loved it as well but she was more into the romance books. Since life obviously didn’t want her to have romance and love romance novels were like the closest thing besides the real deal she could get. “No superman or spiderman comics for you hu?” she replied dryly, bringing the mug to her lips to take a small sip of tea.

She shrugged to his idea. Yeah, why not? Maybe she could distract him and spike her tea, that would be something. Reese forced herself to stare at her mug when she felt his fingers on her collarbone and his hot breath against her skin. That was so unfair. Driving her insane like that. Jerk!

“Don’t let the make-up fool ya.” Reese knew she wasn’t ugly but deep inside she was really insecure about herself, about her life, about her dancing. She just didn’t show it that much. And right now she knew that if she would look up and look into his eyes she would end up kissing him. She couldn’t let that happen. She just couldn’t.

“I’m so jealous of Juli right now.” She softly continued, playing the game along that Tony had started.

[Tony Hoult]

"Juli? What's he got to do with anything?" Tony lazily stroked up and down her arm, lips still near her ear. Yes, he knew what he was doing to her, and for the love of anything holy, she was doing it to him too. And it was fcuking terrifying were it not for the fact that Tony Hoult didn't get scared. "And who said anything about make-up? You're beautiful without all those added layers. They're just distracting."

[Reese Mackenzie]

Reese shook her head, “Nothing. Just forget it.” But she couldn’t. She couldn’t forget how Juli got to have Tony, how Juli got to have all her brothers attention. The worse thing about it? Juli was a nice guy and she couldn’t be angry with him about this. Reese closed her eyes to try and keep herself from turning around and jumping Tony. Although him being this close made that hard, really hard. “That’s what you say now. Wait till you see me in the morning.” Immediately regretting saying that, cause knowing Tony he would make some stupid comment about her wanting him to spend the night with her or something. Still, Reese just let him do what he wanted cause tell him to stop stroking her arm would kill her just as much as letting him continue it.

[Tony Hoult]

"I would love to see you in the morning" He gently lifted her chin, brushing a kiss over her lips. "Though I'm sure sleeping on the couch in your living room will kill my back" Tony could be a gentleman. Sure, he fcuked around, a lot, but he would never take advantage of a girl. Not if she threw herself at him, begging him to fcuk her. After all, he had a little sister, and though the idea of ruining Grahams sister was appealing to him, he knew what it felt like to want to protect your sister. If anyone would take advantage of Effy he'd tear their heads off.

[Reese Mackenzie]

He could do anything right now, he could ask her anything right and she would say yes. Perhaps it was the tequila, perhaps it was her feeling lonely or maybe it was her wanting to pretend to be loved for a moment. Maybe…it was even a mix of all three options, but it sure as hell hurt her heart. “Tony don’t….” she couldn’t do this. She just couldn’t. Pulling away from him Reese set the mug on her side table and got up from the bed. Moving over to the window she wrapped her arms around herself again and stared into the dark street. “We both know you wouldn’t be sleeping on the couch.”

[Tony Hoult]

Tony watched her stand there, and for a moment he wished he was a painter so he could put her longing and anguish onto paper, and hold it there for all eternity, just as a reminder of how he never wanted her to feel. And amazed at the beauty and strength she still held. He wasn't casual or suave as he went over to her, hands soft as they slipped over her shoulders for a moment. His voice was rough, and there was no lie, not a single one which was probably a first, ever. "I wouldn't take advantage of you that way. You mean more to me than just a casual fling. I'm not looking for a drunk fcuk."

[Reese Mackenzie]

Reese closed her eyes when she heard him leave the bed and move over to stand behind her. Goosebumps covering her body when his hands slipped over her shoulders. “I’m not drunk and horny if that’s what you think this is about.” Although when she were drunk she usually did get horny at some point. Pretty much after she cuddled anyone around her till they would run away. Right now she was a little drunk but she still were able to think, and be depressed. “I just…” she started but her voice trailed off.

She couldn’t say it, she couldn’t just go and say: ‘I’m just in love with you Tony.’
Guys like him didn’t fall in love, guys like him didn’t want to commit themselves to one girl. But she couldn’t share him with Juli either. So either was she was screwed. “I know I’m not the greatest company right now, so if you want to you can go home. Don’t feel obligated to stay here, I promise I won’t go running off to some bar and start taking my clothes off.”

But she didn’t want him to go, she wanted him to stay. At least for a little while longer if that would be the only thing she would be getting from him right now. All she wanted was to feel loved an be loved. But why did she always want those things from the person who would not or could not give it to her?

Why?

[Tony Hoult]

"Do you want me to go?" He felt the shiver going down her spine and resisted the urge to trace it with his fingers, so instead he just kept carressing her shoulders, fingers occasionally slipping down to her neck to massage there gently. "I could, if you would want me to. But I'm not feeling obligated or anything. I'd like to stay, if that's okay with you." That would make him happy. Being here, with her, even when she was depressed.

[Reese Mackenzie]

Reese took the tiniest step back and started to lean with her back against his chest. “Yeah…that would be okay with me.” It would hurt when Tony wouldn’t be here and it would hurt when he was here. So what difference did it make? Reese didn’t want to be alone and he was here now. She just didn’t want him to feel forced to stay with her. What was it that a soft touch like his could hurt her heart this much? It just wasn’t fair. “It’s your turn.” She softly said, as to remind him of the game they had been playing.

[Tony Hoult]

"Is it?" Tony wrapped an arm around her waist, holding her casually. He wouldn't feel her up or slip fingers underneath her top. That just wouldn't be fair, and besides, he wanted her to think that he was falling for her. Not his fault he was the worlds best damn actor. Though...was he just fooling her or himself too?

"Hmm, let's see. You make me nervous." What was it with this game that he played? Usually he was a good liar, but when it came to her she made him feel like wanting to tell the truth. It bothered him, and it annoyed him to a point. He wasn't supposed to feel this way with anyone but Effy.